How did I create this?

I am absolutely in love with the realization that I am the creator of my reality. It is so empowering, so liberating. I can feel the warmth of truth inside just saying "I am the creator of my reality."

Now if you think about it, if you are the creator of your reality then not only can we create our own reality going forward but we have to accept that we have created the reality we are experiencing right now.

Ouch! For me that is a bitter pill to take. You see, I am still in the process of my divorce, my [9 year old] daughter and her mom have become mortal enemies, my [11 year old] son is struggling through life, and I am single and living with my parents. Not exactly what I had in mind for my life.

So while I am excited about what I will create for myself, and I need to do a lot of work on that, I also have to take responsibility for where I am and what I have created. It is both depressing and refreshing. By accepting what I have created I give myself the power to change it. So that is what I am doing. I am starting each day creating a clearer and clearer image of what I want for my life, of what I want to experience each day.

A shift is taking place. I can feel it. I can also feel the egos resistance to all that I do [so I know I am doing the right thing]. I have never struggled through life so much as I am now. I have never understood myself and the world or been as conscious and present as I am today. I think that says a lot.

Life is good.

~Peace